I'm leaving in three days! I can't believe how fast time is going. My parents keep asking me if i'm excited to go because lately I haven't really showed any emotion at all about this whole thing! To be honest I really haven't started feeling any emotion until yesterday night! I left work knowing I only had one shift left and it was the most amazing feeling!
People ask if I'm scared to go! I'm not scared because I'll be shooting a gun or in the postion to get physical with someone. But I'm moving away from home, to a city that I have only be in for about 30 mintues a visit, knowing no one, understanding that I will not be moving back home after i'm finished there but rather to a more foreign place further up north! That thought is very scary but I've realized that it's so scary that it's not... If i worry about this stuff and become scared of it I'm missing out on the whole adventure!
I have bought so many new clothes!!! I look so business like now!!! I've spent alot of money and to be honest I have no idea what my balance looks like on my visa... but I look good and i guess that's all that matters hahaha!!
I have two days off now and I better make them productive!!! Lots to do!!

My Christmas... Making the best from the worst!!!

Now don't get me wrong... my Christmas has been great! But it started out a little rocky and I'll tell you why...
Christmas day is not as special as Christmas Eve or Boxing day... We do all of our gatherings on those days and leave Christmas day as a relaxing day! It makes the other two days far more enjoyable! So I decided that I would love nothing more than to work Christmas for many reasons other than extra money. I love my residents and living with them 40 hours a week makes me want to celebrate Christmas with them... they are my family! Some even have no family so I am what they have! I bought Christmas scrubs and a Santa Claus hat. The Nurse, Health Care Aids, and I all planned to work Christmas together because we like each other alot and have a solid, bullet proof routine that is amazing! So be honest everything about today was going to be great!
Until...
I got a phone call last night at 11:30 telling me they needed me to work in the Laundry room... now let me expalin this room! It's a small room at the back of the building where the only company I have is with my radio and a whole bunch of soiled articles of clothing. Any other day I don't mind becasue it's nice to work alone... but not on Christmas... not on the day that I want to spend with my residents! So I told the head Nurse NO! I won't do it... not on Christmas... I only have a few shifts left and I want to be with the residents... so he said ok!
This morning I get to work... make my coffee... start saying goodmorning to all my resdients and another girl walks in... they called her in to work for me without my permission and dropped me to the laundry room. I was so mad. Not because I necessarily had to go do laundry becasue it's an easy job but because I was HAD... I was HAD by the managment... they lied to me...
But I cooled off after 30 minutes, cranked the tunes and danced the rest of the day away. I was also finished early so I watched some figure skating with a lady I had to remind ever 3 minutes that it was Christmas! I love her!
Christmas means alot to me this year! I know I wont be around for the next couple of Christmas's because of my postings! It makes me a little emotional... but not overly! I'm excited to start training! I'm just not excited about the poor shape I've been keeping myself in the last week... OVER EATING and not RUNNING!!! I'll pay when I get to DEPOT!!

Ok I have some exciting news!!! I made it to the RCMP!!! That's right people I'm on the road to being a Police officer!!! I really don't feel like talking about it becasue it has been the topic most talked about in the last week!! So I'll blog again when I feel like sharing some more details and feelings on the whole thing!!
Only 17 more days till the opening ceremonies!!!

Today is a day like non other... a day that only comes once a year! Today is the most amazing day I've had in a long time and I don't want it to end! I'll tell you exactly why...
I woke up at 11:00 which meant I attended the church with Pastor Pillow and Sister Sheets!! But it was good because I was tired! I then walked out of my room only to find my parents gave away alot of clutter that filled the basement. When this happens it usually means that we are having company and it's some sort of holiday... which it wasn't but it started me into the festive Christmas Spirit of the day!
My parents shortly arrived home from church and my mom started cooking up a storm. When I got out of the shower it smelt like Thanksgiving or Christmas so I started singing Christmas Carols! HAHAHA!! I went to my grandparents house... which I regret some days not doing as much as I should. My Uncle was there and we all watched the Bombers game... but at the beginning of the game at half time I had to run to the store with my grandma which was fun... because I bought a new Christmas CD... It's Jazz...
But the greatest part was... IT STARTED TO SNOW!!! I LOVE the first SNOW FALL of the YEAR!!! It puts me into a mood that is just fantastic and gives me a new found motivation for life!!! Don't get me wrong, by February I will be looking for Summer... But for now I'm in love!
I am now home after a great day of family and lovely things and am going to start preparing for my busy week!!! Sunday's are probably one of my favorite days! As I see it (knock on wood) nothing will ruin this day!!!
I know it's not a holiday but it is to me... It will be called "Family and everything that's good day"...

Oh another day... I just got home from work. I had a really good day! I have the next four days off so I guess I have an extra long weekend. I am spending it in Fargo with my parents!! The dollar is amazing so I'm going to go crazy!!! I love all those stores down in the States!!! I think Super Target is my favorite, they have everything!
I feel as if this blog will be a straight ramble about nothing because my life is rather repetitive lately! I go to work, go to the gym, and then hang out with my best friend... Oh I'm going to see Steve Nash play basketball in December so that is exciting!!!
RCMP is going pretty good... it's a little discouraging. It almost seems like I've come so far in the application process just to find out it will be another two months until I get accepted to go to the college. After this week I will have nothing left to do... it just takes so long to process everything. But I am happy I will be home for Christmas!!!
I guess that's all for now!!!
Bye

I am happy today!!! Not just today but this last week has been a great one! I started out this week very pumped up to work out at the gym! I did it! I have been working so hard and it feels so good! Most of my motivation comes from being scared spitless of DEPOT in Regina... but over all I have more energy, more insentive to eat healthy and the need to get a full eight hours of sleep a night! I have been lifting more weight than I every have in my life and running faster and harder than I could imagine! I feel so fit during the days I could just drop what I'm doing and run a few miles! I love that energy!

I guess that is pretty much all that is happening in my life! Centering it all around the gym and preparing for what may be the hardest, most physically challenging adventure of my life!

I seriously just got into the house and came straight down to my computer... I NEED to blog right now!! Lately I have felt a little sick and just unhappy... Now don't get me wrong... I am really not unhappy, I'm just overwhelmed by my upcoming future!

Things are moving so quickly in the whole RCMP process it looks like I might be leaving before Christmas. This is absoultely great!! I couldn't be happier!! I guess I'm just scared of everything I'm going to have to do on my own. Go to a completely new city where I know no one, get thrown into boot camp, meet so many new people, and then get placed into a town where I have never been... I will probably not know a soul while beginning a profession I will have for the next 25 years of my life!! I will suddenly have to conquer those who am I, where is my home, will my future be lonely, am I in the right place questions! On top of all of these questions I realzed I need money to do all of this... it's an opportunity of a lifetime for me...

But then I look at all of these negatives and start getting overwhelmed by all the positives... I am going to a new place (that is amazing), I am meeting so many new people (maybe some lifetime friends), I will finally have money to buy things, I have so many opportunities from work to really make a difference in lives, there is so much to learn, so many people to meet and talk to about Jesus, and so many dreams that right now are just that... DREAMS!!!

I walked outside today and I instantly became refreshed. The cold air and the excitment of going to watch University basketball brought me back to those Saskatoon days!! The days where I once faced all of those questions I had above. I drove over to Starbucks to pick up my non-fat sugar-free caramal latte as tradition wouldn't let me drink anything but... I remembered the feeling of freedom I had in Saskatoon, the feeling that it was just me and God everywhere I went. The time in my life where I knew best who I was... I suddenly became calm... Thinking back I knew God had me in Saskatoon and helped me through alot of hardship but also showed me so much joy. Now I can't help it but smile!

I can say right now I am ready. I am ready for my new life and everything that is going to bring! As far as I'm concerned this is where it all begins. The last 22 years of my life has be preparing me for it!!!