I seriously just got into the house and came straight down to my computer... I NEED to blog right now!! Lately I have felt a little sick and just unhappy... Now don't get me wrong... I am really not unhappy, I'm just overwhelmed by my upcoming future!

Things are moving so quickly in the whole RCMP process it looks like I might be leaving before Christmas. This is absoultely great!! I couldn't be happier!! I guess I'm just scared of everything I'm going to have to do on my own. Go to a completely new city where I know no one, get thrown into boot camp, meet so many new people, and then get placed into a town where I have never been... I will probably not know a soul while beginning a profession I will have for the next 25 years of my life!! I will suddenly have to conquer those who am I, where is my home, will my future be lonely, am I in the right place questions! On top of all of these questions I realzed I need money to do all of this... it's an opportunity of a lifetime for me...

But then I look at all of these negatives and start getting overwhelmed by all the positives... I am going to a new place (that is amazing), I am meeting so many new people (maybe some lifetime friends), I will finally have money to buy things, I have so many opportunities from work to really make a difference in lives, there is so much to learn, so many people to meet and talk to about Jesus, and so many dreams that right now are just that... DREAMS!!!

I walked outside today and I instantly became refreshed. The cold air and the excitment of going to watch University basketball brought me back to those Saskatoon days!! The days where I once faced all of those questions I had above. I drove over to Starbucks to pick up my non-fat sugar-free caramal latte as tradition wouldn't let me drink anything but... I remembered the feeling of freedom I had in Saskatoon, the feeling that it was just me and God everywhere I went. The time in my life where I knew best who I was... I suddenly became calm... Thinking back I knew God had me in Saskatoon and helped me through alot of hardship but also showed me so much joy. Now I can't help it but smile!

I can say right now I am ready. I am ready for my new life and everything that is going to bring! As far as I'm concerned this is where it all begins. The last 22 years of my life has be preparing me for it!!!