Ok so I'm back to blogging and due to misconceptions of why I left... no I don't find myself above blogging and no I do not think it's a waste of time. It's due to my ability to neglect reading properly... as I thought I was deleting my post I was actually deleting my whole blog. I was sad for about an hour then soon realized that it was more of a blessing than anything else... I say that because this year is a NEW year, with new memories to be made! So here's to new beginnings!!!

Today I am hit with GRACE. I have never felt so unworthy of anything yet to have it given to me is such a humbling thing. I don't deserve it but the people who care most about me know I need it. My parents are amazing... I always thought they let go of me too quickly when I moved away. But I now realize they just didn't want to hold on too tight! But now I know both when I need them and when I don't, they are there!

As cheesy as this sounds I had never been shown Grace so real as I have from my parents these last few days. I looked back at what Jesus did for me and I didn't deserve that either. I will never know the extent of what Jesus did because it's so huge, bigger than my mind but I think it's life situations that help you start to understand and get closer to the realization and understanding that when we as sinners just accept Jesus' gift we are saved. We have to be responsible with that gift just as I will be responsible with the gift my parents gave me. I can imagine the disapointment from my parents if I blow the grace they showed me... imgine Jesus' disapointment everytime I sin. wow that sucks! This blog almost dumbs down this whole ordeal because it seems so large in my head this morning!

On a lighter note I saw a deaf man talking to himself the other day... ok now that you have pictured it.... think about how funny that is!!!