Moving Day

Yesterday I so badly wanted to go home… but my initial home, the one I have until 12 pm tomorrow has no furniture, in fact it has absolutely nothing except a TV. Soon after I thought, oh I want to go to my new home. Unfortunately, I did not get my key until today. Therefore, I was officially homeless for a few hours yesterday. It was actually a little liberating. I sat in the food court at the mall and thought about those people who have no home, who got kicked out of a home, or just don’t want to go home because home sucks. It made me somewhat sad. Home gives a sense of stability. Some people do not have that, where do they go?

I am on this whole ‘I don’t want to settle down kick’. I do not want to have a stable job, I do not want to be tied down to a lease, and I want to be in a place in my life where I am used for a season, in whatever aspect, when I feel it’s time to move on I’m let go. This right now seems like an ideal lifestyle. I am not running away and I am defiantly not scared of stability. I just realize that one day I will settle down with a family, house and a husband. I cannot wait for that day, in fact everyday I remind myself I am one day closer to that lifestyle I have dreamed of since I was a little girl. But in the mean time if I want to get in my car and drive… I will. If I want to move to a different province for a few months… I will. If I want to get a summer job far away in the rainforest… I will. This is starting to sound like a country song so I will stop…

Life only happens once. When I was sitting in the mall I realized that all I really need to survive and find stability is in my bible. If I read that and follow God, things will fall into place. I will get a job for a season, I will be blessed with a place to live, and I will be used for God’s glory through the people I meet. Thank God, He does not call us to a life of boredom. However, this life He calls us to is different for everyone and we cannot forget that either.

The Day Frankie Almost Hustled Me

Today was so random… I woke up and went to the gym. Then I went to shoot the basketball around in the gym. I started to get bored so I was about to leave when this handicapped guy Frankie came up to me and asked for a game of 21! So I said yes and we started playing. He started shooting and just sucked so I felt bad and missed some easy ones. Then all of the sudden Frankie pulls up his socks and gets his game on. Frankie couldn’t miss. I started to get worried because he was beating me. So then I made my shots and beat Frankie. Oh man… I almost got hustled. Yeah Frankie was hustling me the whole time because he thought I was a girl who coudn't play. I know this is a little cocky but I can count the number of people on one hand who can beat me at 21… Frankie was not going to be added to that today!

I was then about to leave and these ghetto guys walk in from a rehabilitation school. Was about to leave but then we all decided to have a game. These guys were in about grade 11-12. It was so fun, the guys were ones that you wouldn’t want to meet in the back alley after dark but they were so nice and I think I made some more friends today. We just had a great time!

I then went home and got pretty sick so I slept all afternoon! But I have a huge assignment that I have to do so that puts me at the school right now. Actually another part of my random day was going to Tim Horton’s tonight. I was standing there waiting for my coffee and heard the song “how great is our God” over the music speakers. I was pretty surprised. I’m sad to say that I didn’t really take time to acknowledge how great God is today. So it just made me take a step back and realize that God is just as good at Tim Horton’s at 6:00 pm as He is 10:30 Sunday mornings!

These are my amazing youth girls from G-force

Kristy and me

I feel lately like my blogs are lacking… last year I had so many adventures and so many funny things happen. This year I almost feel like boring Wendy… oh man…

The closer it gets to December 23 (the day I fly home) the sadder I get. I think I’m really going to miss my small group girls from Westside. They are amazing and I have had the privilege of seeing them grow in God in the past year. It was actually intense on Friday… At Youth we had a quieter service, which included a good worship time, and then reflection on a verse Jason gave us. After that we went into our small groups and talked. The conversation in my group turned into a heated debate on “where was God in the holocaust?” It was wild. My girls are all in grade eight but this topic seemed so real to them. Two out of the three girls mainly in the debate are new Christians so it was amazing just to hear their opinions on it.

Another girl in my small group just had some amazing life spoken into her Friday. She had no idea she was beautiful. She is such a sweet girl but sometimes I forget that the only place she might hear that is at youth. I love my girls.

I guess another cool thing has happened. Life has just been so random lately. Just with friends and the way God is talking to me. A passion has been put into my heart for a program to be started in the church. I have to pray for a while but its almost like things are falling into place and I’m just watching it all happen. I had a little argument with God on Sunday. After I had more of a vision I told God that I am the least bit qualified to start this kind of program… Then I remembered a quote I saw on Jason’s door, “ God doesn’t call the qualified, He qualifies the called.” After that I felt a little stupid about questioning God and a new more excited passion for how to prepare for such a ministry started in me.

Well I guess that is all in the life of Wendy!!!!

Snow Day

Wow ok so yesterday morning I woke up and looked outside and saw the snow… It was sooo nice! So I decided I would do absolutely nothing… and when I mean nothing I mean not go to school to do homework and not work (which I could choose to do if I wanted).

I looked outside and saw Susan running down the street. This was weird and I laughed at her. This caused me to throw some clothes on and go outside… The traffic wasn’t moving and she needed to go to work so we decided to take my car and jump the median. But then realized it wouldn’t make it… But then there was a bus… Chad was there waving to us from the bus… seriously the bus was like a foot away from me which made the whole thing funnier! So then Chad jumped off the bus and I walked him to the University… We ended up pushing some people out of the snow and it was fun… We then met up with this girl that I hadn’t seen in a million years. I was her youth leader and now she has graduated… We drank coffee and talked.

Then I walked all the way back to my house and then to Ashley’s salon… we drank more coffee… The rest of my day pretty much went like that. It was an amazing day because I always wish I lived in little house on the prairie and did just this… walk in high snow to meet people for coffee. What a day…

MEGAN SKELLY… I love you… I can’t wait to hang out with you…

Yes for those of you who do not know… I’m coming home baby! Now don’t get too many mixed feelings! I’m coming home for the months or January and February… during this time I will be coaching a sweet basketball team, finishing my courses correspondence, and working… I am keeping my things in Saskatoon because when I am done in Winnipeg I plan to come back to Saskatoon… At least that is the plan…

My sister and I had the most interesting conversation on the phone the other day… It went a little like this…
Steph- “Buddy I’m weird.”
Wendy- “Why?”
Steph- “ Every morning I wake up… I go to school… Learn… play basketball and come home. But I realized I do more than that.”
Wendy- “Like What?”
Steph- “No buddy this is the part that just gets me… You know when you get up in the morning and you get dressed, you look nice for yourself… because that is what matters, not what people think but how comfortable you are with your self. Have you ever noticed that there will be that one person at school that you may never talk to, you may pass once in the hall, and you may never learn their name but once you see them your whole day is turned around. You put on that nice shirt rather than the older once just in case you pass him that day. You go to skip class but you see him down the hall, you take the turn into the classroom because you suddenly feel motivated to learn, or you might even put that extra curl in your hair for him that day… Buddy does this make me weird?”
Wendy- “No way that happens to me too… You know that there is about a 1% chance anything would happen with the person but it’s just seeing them that makes you somehow want to succeed…”

So after this conversation we decided that this is funny, exciting and maybe only a Toews thing… It has absolutely nothing to do with self-confidence, self-esteem, or lack of Jesus in our lives. It’s not like we go home and fantasize about this person. It’s just the initial view. But the question is… Where does this come from? Does anyone know what I’m talking about???? Jenn you for sure do you are still a Toews at heart lol!

Lately I feel as though I’m in a rut… I can’t seem to get out. I know where I’m going in life its basically just living until I get there. But I don’t want to “just live” until I get there I want to be motivated to do exciting things on the way… isn’t that what life is all about anyways??? If I just farted around until I got where I wanted to be I would be old, grey and living in a recliner watching the price is right, while my Health care aids bring me lunch and change my diaper. But there are days where I just don’t have any energy and sleep seems more important than waking up and braving the ‘what seems to be the beginning’ of a cold Saskatoon winter.

None the less, God is following me around these days blessing my socks off. Let me tell you a little story. My roommate Susan and I decided to go to Winnipeg over the weekend. It was a great weekend, however, on the way home we came very close to a bad accident. As we were driving on the #1 HWY we went to pass a man. He decided not to shoulder check, he came into our lane and almost drove us off the road. Now you need to know we were going about 115 Km at the time. Susan slammed on the brakes and we went up on two tires… my side of the car was up in the air… we came down heading for the ditch… some how Susan brought the car back straight and we fish tailed about four times… but we just continued driving. This was so scary. Susan and I just looked at each other and started laughing because we had no idea how we didn’t roll the car.

We got back to Westside and Angus asked us how our trip was. We told him the story and he didn’t seem at all surprised. He then went on to tell us that before the Sunday morning service he had us on his hearts and everyone in the prayer room started praying for us and our safety home. That’s not all… I talked to my mom and my grandma kept on calling to see if I had made it home all right… She prayed all day as well.

This just makes me crazy because I know recognize what God is doing in my life, in return should I not live it with full motivation and excitement to do his work?