Yesterday Justin Vadasz called me and told me he was in town... better yet he wanted to spend time with me! Thus, that has been my last 24 hours... fun with Justin Vadasz! We went to a show and watched the guys he is travelling with perform and then watched a girl punk band "shark attack, shark attack, shark attack... AHHHHH!" What a time!!! Following that we came back to my place to watch a movie and had an amazing night sleep!!! We went to Portage la Prairie for the day today to visit my sister and cousin!! It was such a fun and relaxing day!!!

The best part about my day was the puppy I stole from my sister!!! Yes you heard me right... I stole it. Actually to technically steal it she would not notice it until I was gone but she packed him up for me. So ok i'm a babysitter!!! This puppy has not been sold yet so I thought it would be fun to own a puppy!!! I LOVE him... I named him Rocky. He is sleeping right now wrapped in a towel because I don't want him to poop on the couch. But I tuckered him out pretty good!! We pretty much painted the town red... The only sad part is taking him away from his mother... she cries if I leave the room and she notices or wimpers when I'm not holding her and she wants some cuddling time with me!! I think i'm falling in love!

In life today I feel like I'm chasing something out of reach... It gives me such unsatisfaction I don't even know why I'm focusing on it. I just think back to the times in Saskatoon where my life was "perfect" I was directly in the will of God... How do I know that??? I was happy and my life felt fulfilled!I had an amazing dependency on Him and thought of nothing else but his plan for me and the people around me. I had all areas of my life covered and I loved everything about it. God and I had never been closer... it was amazing! I keep asking myself why I don't come back to that place of such security... my answer is truely unknown... maybe it's not... maybe I'm just too stubborn...